I acknowledge that my blog is a bit, well, very thin, but I find that I dismiss ideas before I have even explored them, because I find fault with them, and this tricks me into thinking that I have no ideas - which is the end result - I have no ideas. As a result of this, I tend to keep things to myself, because I ‘m only happy to upload things that I’m happy with, which is why I’ve only uploaded things from Maya and the life drawing which I was quite happy with. I am really going to try and have a go at generating ideas and getting them out.
I find it hard to be thinking of other things while doing something else, I view each thing as a set task and when I'm doing one thing, I'm not doing anything else. This is why I find it hard to research and generate ideas - I see a piece of text as a whole piece of text and not as bits to be used separately.
I have read some of the other blogs now, and I have been thinking about myself, and what I would want to show in my self-portrait. I feel like I am myself at home, but not myself anywhere else, at least to start with anyway. Initially I visualised this as me packing and unpacking two separate parts of my personality, (one being myself and the other being shy and hidden in the background, trying not to be noticed.) When I thought about this image though, it gave the impression that I could have control over which part of me was in the box at the time, but I don’t think this is the case. A more accurate way of visualising it would be, that when I meet people or am in a new situation, it’s like building a tower that I am climbing up as I am building it, so if I fall off (e.g. if I return to a once familiar environment) I have to start building all over again.
These are just a few ideas that I might try and incorporate into the self portrait.